Do you ever have one of “those” days? You know the one…where you just want to crawl back into bed and rewind the clock? Oh boy I’ve had more than my share of days like that. You see I’m a recovering yeller. Is that even a word? I used to yell a lot.
One day the Lord started to slowly and gently stir my heart. He showed me that (ouch) I had an anger problem. I’m talking about the kind of anger that runs deep. Very deep.The kind that spills out of your mouth…you got it…in yelling!
What if someone put a video of me yelling on social media? I would not like that one bit. Then my goodness why was I yelling at the people I love the most in this world?
I tried my hardest to control my anger. I blamed my past hurts for my anger. I said “this is just who I am, I can’t change”. I got more angry whenever someone pointed out that I was angry. Then I realized…I could not control myself! I needed to surrender. Slowly but surely the Lord chipped away at my hard heart.
“Be not hasty in thy spirit to be angry: for anger resteth in the bosom of fools.” Ecclesiastes 7:9 KJV
Who likes to admit that they have anger issues? I mean come on…really? I want everyone to think my life is picture perfect or social media perfect…lol. But that just isn’t so is it? We all struggle with sin. I decided it was time to admit my guilt of being angry. My guilt of being a fool. I was angry. All. The. Time. I needed help. I needed deep healing of my deepest darkest hurts. How about you? What’s eating you up? Is it anger, guilt, pride, arrogance, lust, greed, abandonment, shame…the list can go on forever can’t it. Is it time for you to surrender?
“A good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil: for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh.” Luke 6:45 KJV
What does your heart look like? Mine sure wasn’t pretty. It says it right there in black and white…did you read that? Right there…go back and look at it again…”for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh”. Hmmmm…okay so that one got me too. I needed a transformation of my heart. This is where faith + action = no more anger. So this is where I started to fill up my heart with God’s Word. Thus the healing began. Each time anger tries to rear it’s ugly head I have to take it captive with the Word of God. Have you ever spoken to a mountain and seen it move? I have!! I speak to the mountain of fear, hurt, rejection, lust, greed, abandonment, and shame. I tell it to go in Jesus name. I tell it that the same power that raised Christ from the grave lives in me…lives in me! The Holy Spirit…you know that guy…the one who was sent to us to be our comforter…our friend. The Bible clearly says that He (Jesus) will never leave us or forsake us. That is why He sent the Holy Spirit. I believe that…do you?
“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control.” Galatians 5:22 KJV
I love this verse. Have you ever read it? I mean really, really read it? Do you see there where it says the fruit of the Spirit? That’s the Holy Spirit…the One Who lives in every Christ follower!!!! So if you have the Holy Spirit living in you then where is the fruit? The fruit comes from surrendering to Jesus daily…dying to yourself every single day. I’m not going to say it’s easy. But…OH BOY…the love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control are so much better than my crummy old anger.
Maybe you are reading this and thinking. “Well good for her she’s got this all figured out, my life is a train wreck and nothing’s gonna help me.” This is where that thing called surrender comes into your world. I know it’s hard. Trust me. But Jesus is there…He is waiting for YOU. My goodness girl He created you!! Call upon His name…just say it…Jesus…That’s it! Ask Him to show you Who He really is. Ask Him to be the Lord of your life. It feels so good to surrender. Bit by bit, piece by piece He will rebuild your life, your heart. I know this to be true because this is what Jesus is doing in me!!
“Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature:
old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.” 2 Corinthians 5:17 KJV