Four years ago I stood at my kitchen sink one afternoon nap time sobbing as I held a plate in one hand and scrubbed in a circular motion with the sponge on the other. “I don’t want my life to be only about diapers and dishes,” I complained out loud. Over the next few days, God clearly showed me that my life is about serving Him in everything, whether I travel the globe in mission, write the next best seller, abolish modern slavery, or simply follow Him into the next load of laundry.
Do I trust God’s plan? Do I trust His best for my life?
Today I stood at my kitchen sink again, crying again, grumbling, “I want life to be more about cleaning the kitchen 5 times a day.”
How often I am puffed up with high thoughts of my abilities and think He should place me in another position rather than my current unglamorous assignment. No one wins the Nobel Peace Prize for loving their families well and taking care of the household. I am educated. I am able to do more. Yes, maybe. That is not the question at hand. The question is: Do I trust God?
God knows who we are, after all, He knit us together in our mothers’ wombs and all the days ordained for us were written before one of them came to pass (Ps. 139). He knows our talents and skills better than we. No resume or references needed.
Jesus is simply asking me to love those He placed before me
Please understand, I absolutely love mommyhood and serving my family. My angst is not the value or treasure of my family, rather my desire to live effectively for the Kingdom. I think of all the lost out there in the world and want to go and tell them about Jesus. I think about all the hurting and want to advocate for their deliverance. I think about all the orphans and want to mother them all.
Yet this is where He has placed me. This is my portion. My husband and two young boys are His wise decision for the investment of myself for His kingdom purposes right now. Maybe there will be orphans in the future for me. Maybe there will be mission travels again or slavery abolition. Today, Jesus is simply asking me to love well those He placed before me. To serve well in the tasks He assigns me and to do all with a thankful heart.
“Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” Ps. 46:10
God knows our hearts that long to make the largest impact for the Gospel with our lives possible. He also knows in the scheme of eternity that sometimes the seemingly simple and modest assignments are the most essential to His long-term Kingdom-come-on-earth work.
He is trustworthy. His plan is perfect. Let us embrace our assignments with joy and know… to obey is better than any sacrifice… especially the sacrifice of our family. Only we can be mom.