Today is a beautiful day – especially for the Pacific NW! Ruthie & I slept in this morning & then we met up with our friend Beth & her baby boys for a walk in the sunshine. We walked to Starbucks and got coffee & just talked about life & parenting our precious newborn babes. It was so refreshing to get out of the house, get some exercise and connect with a dear sister in Christ!
We came home & I put Ruthie in her favorite and wrap & we got to work in the yard. We watered flowers and planted part of our vegetable garden. We planted lettuce, chard, cabbage, cucumbers, tomatoes & radishes today. I can’t wait till we can enjoy delicious salads fresh from our own backyard! Then we pulled out our old clothes line & hung out our cloth diapers to dry in the sunshine.
How did we get here?
At this point it really hit me – baby wearing, veggie growing, cloth diapers! How did we get here? This life was certainly not my plan or my design for things.
When I was younger, I had a dream and a vision for my life – probably like most all naïve college freshman do. I was going to study hard & go to law school. After graduation I was going to work as a corporate attorney, wearing trendy suits & high heels, and make lots of money. I was going to live in a city – a big city – preferably far away from the podunk town I grew up in. I never wanted to get married & certainly didn’t factor children in to my glamorous life plan. I was young & extremely selfish & I loved my life and my plans.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are my ways your ways declares the Lord” –Isaiah 55:8
Then one day after graduation I came face to face with a man unlike any other, and everything changed. His name is Jesus & He saved me from myself and slowly began to change my heart. Don’t ever think that the God of the universe, the God that made your heart, can’t change your heart!
“And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove your heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.” – Ezekiel 36:26
It’s absolutely incredible to realize how much you can love
When I look at my life now it’s absolutely incredible to realize how much you can love something that you never even knew you wanted! Being a wife and a mama are the two most incredible blessings and bring me the most joy and fulfillment, yet were things I never even figured in to my plan. I’m so thankful for my relationship with the Lord and for my amazing husband – the two men who make this beautiful life possible. My husband is an incredible man of God who shepherds my heart & works SO hard to take care of me & Ruthie.
There are still things that I have to let go of – learning to walk with a trust God is a continuing journey. If you’re holding on to something today that isn’t from the Lord, let it go. It might hurt at first to see your vision die, but God is faithful & He will replace it with something far greater and more beautiful than you could ever imagine.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding” –Proverbs 3:5